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Post by Alledyra on Nov 13, 2006 14:31:04 GMT -5
Inside this place we call our home, I've found no place to walk or roam... I've found no shelter, no loving arms, I've found no safey, no help from harm
I've given up my heart and breath, I've given up my soul, I've nothing left. You ask for more, but I can't give, Without you now, I can't live.
And now you're gone, and shadows left I'm left alone, afloat, adrift. I hear your song in waters dark, And know that I can't swim that far...
But I must try, for without you, I've lost my place, my reason here. You've turned away, you left me fear. And as I tread these waters blue, I feel the riptide pulling me. I feel my last hope fading free.
Until I've found the bottoms deep, And know that I've found my last sleep. I tried until there was nothing left, But I should have known.... With you, I would have still been bereft...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 13, 2006 14:44:31 GMT -5
The End is Just Another Beginning.
I tried and failed many times. At Math, At Science, At simple rhymes. I can't suceed like others do. I'm never perfect, never true.
I've found a game, that I can't play. I've found a word that I can't say. I've found a love that I can't have. I've found a person that I can't save.
But none of that is why I'm here... I found a driver, drinking beer. I found him as he found his brakes... To bad that he slowed so late...
And my beginnings touching his... As somehow both of us remain. Awake, alive and holding hands. Finding out each other's names.
He thought he'd killed me, that is clear. I thought it too, through my fear. But he saved me, by hitting me... I was going to the bridge over the River, see...
And I saved him from driving again... And somehow both of us found a friend. It was the end of many things... And the beginning....
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 13, 2006 15:40:43 GMT -5
I can't watch you standing there... I can't hear you screaming... I'm afraid it's me out there... The words all have my meaning.
I don't see you standing there... I don't hear you screaming... If I say it a hundred times, Maybe I'll wake up dreaming...
Your words can cut like little knives... And twine within my heart so deep... And even in silence between.... I hear them whisper in my sleep...
I push and push until I break... Trying to be who you made me... And when I look to see my face, It's not my own that I see...
I drove away to find a place, Where no one else could find me... But your voice still whispers in my mind... I am my own worst enemy...
I've given up, I've given in. And now only wish for quiet... But it seems there's none to find.. Even dreams are violent....
I woke up screaming yesterday, I woke up to your voice... Laughing at my sanity... You said, "Losing it was a choice..."
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 13, 2006 15:42:20 GMT -5
A flower stands proudly in the sun, It's petals glowing with pride.
It's not a rose, or fair of face... It's a daisy, simple and undyed.
A child admire's it's simple stare, Wondering how it got there.
Wondering about it's life... Something so simple yet so fair.
A woman comes and pulls the weed Fearing it will spread it's kind.
In her garden, full of flowers divine, And the child watchs this with open mind.
Seeing meaning behind the act, She takes the wilting flower away...
And finds a patch of sand for her. Planting it for another day...
For in her mind one thing is clear... She should hold on to things so dear... Beauty need not be complex... Beauty is what beauty makes...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 17, 2006 22:27:57 GMT -5
Do you see these things I write about, And know none of them are true... It's a curse for me to say, The words I see in you.
I've found a way to share your heart, To bear your soul at last, And will you ever wonder why I understand your past?
I cannot change the things I see, I cannot change my gift. I write the things I cannot change, And hope your spirits lift...
One day, you'll look back on these words, And find a truth in sight... Not only I have felt this pain, I never ceased your fight...
Sorry guys, boredom caught me again...only so much tv I can stand to watch, so crappy poetry is my next release...if no one reads this that's cool...and if it's to be deleted, have at it! Just trying to pass some time.
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 17, 2006 22:38:59 GMT -5
Toilet Water
Wake up in the morning... Wonder where I've been. Spent too long sleeping... Dreaming of another end.
I've lost my own shadow, I found yours in my stead... And now at night I hear a screaming... Just another voice inside my head.
And twisted words have hollowed me. Like twisted vines I've grown. Ain't nothing left of who I was, Of who you thought you'd known.
My breath is sour from last nights drink, My head feels like a stone, And in your arms I thought I'd hide, Just another sin for me to atone.
The dreams we had that were our hope, Faded in the day, Late at night I hear them call... But there's nothing left to say.
You made your choice, as I made mine, And left before the dawn... And I found toilet water's fine... Tastes better than your last con...
LOL...and that's a peek into my mind. Scary ain't it...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 17, 2006 22:44:51 GMT -5
Save me...
Hate me. As I hate you. Save me, Like you always do.
Find me, I've lost the way to go. Need me, You always need me, though...
Love me, I'd beg, but you'd not care. Know me, I know you're still right there.
Hate me, It's what I want of you. Save me, It's what I know you'll do.
For: D.
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 17, 2006 22:53:14 GMT -5
When I found your arms tonight, Imagine my surprise... I'd always thought you'd joked around, I'd always thought them lies.
And when I needed someone here, And no one else would come, You found and you took me in, You made me feel at home.
I didn't want to hear your words, I didn't think you say... The way you felt was more than I And I could never stay...
You were my friend, And now where do we go... You know the reasons I stay here, You know we can't grow....
And what hurts most was not your words... It was how you said you care. You can't even look at me, Only say I'm never there...
I'm sorry for the games we played... I'm sorry for your pain, I never wanted it this way... I swear it once again...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 18, 2006 22:37:45 GMT -5
And what hurts the most was not your words, But how you say you care... You can't even look at me, Only pretend I'm not even there.
I heard the tone of your voice, I heard it loud and clear... But you can't see the shock in me, You can't see my fear...
I hide things far too well today, As I have once been taught, My heart's true path is razor sharp, It cuts within, as often as not...
A wall I've built to hide my truth, A fortress you can't climb... And all the things you see in me, Are, in truth, not mine.
Will you leave our path like this, As I have left before? Or will it be another thing, We both choose to ignore...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 18, 2006 22:49:21 GMT -5
He said that he loved me... But won't be my friend... And this isn't how, I thought this would end...
He said that he loved me... But not with the truth, It cut just as deep, As any untruth...
He said that he loved me, And that's why I cry... I never expected, The truth on the fly...
If I could erase it, And we could go back, I'd never have let us, Get this far off track.
He knows who I am, And that's why he stays, Just within distance, But always away...
If I could go back there, And take all his pain, I'd turn back the clock, I'd say not my name.
I'd pretend that we'd never, Had anything true, I'd leave long before this, And leave not a clue...
I'm sorry I've done this... It was not my intent... But it seems we're forsaken... From the words that he sent...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 18, 2006 23:05:37 GMT -5
You will think to save me, As I hide inside this dark... You will think to heal me, But you can't find the mark...
It's not outside that's damaged, You can't see it in my smile... I've been perfecting this long ago... Long ago when I was wild...
I'd scream and shout my anger. I'd show it on my skin. But the the darkest bruises, Were always found within...
And now you think I'm perfect, You say that I've been healed... You let me walk my own path, But the anger's just concealed...
I can feel it building, Deep within my soul... And now I know to hide it, So you can't see it's toll...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 18, 2006 23:09:55 GMT -5
I can't write happy poetry, I've tried, but it's not there... It's not that I don't feel it, But the words just don't appear.
So what I write is what I see, In others all around, I've found my tongue loosens a bit, And words are easily found.
So if you're reading What I write... Fear not for my mind... It's just that I can't find the things, To write in words so kind...
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 19, 2006 1:05:19 GMT -5
The Beginning of the Battle
And so it begins.... In the dead of the night, With everyone sleeping, We begin our new fight...
Will justice prevail, As the stories before, Or will evil now reign, From shore to shore?
And so it begins, And my hands tremble so.... Am I ready for this? We all will soon know!
Our heartbeat grows faster, With excitement and fear... And now for the first strike... To arms! Get your gear!!
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Post by Alledyra on Nov 20, 2006 23:47:24 GMT -5
In my writing I push the bar... Maybe this time, I pushed too far... In my real life, I'm quiet, shy... Never daring to even try...
In my writing, you see me.. But only what I wish to see.. In my real life, I shy away, It's too painful in light of day...
In my writing, I dare to care, Though if you knew me, you'd see it there.. But I hide it, buried deep... It hurts too much for me to keep...
In my writing, I free my soul... And when you see my written eyes, You know their truthful, You know they're nice...
But if you saw me, standing there... In your doorway, you wouldn't spare, A moment for the time of day.... At least I've always seen it that way...
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Post by Alledyra on May 19, 2008 11:07:14 GMT -5
Loss
I lost my voice, when he touched my hand Though I knew I shouldn't. I lost my sight, when he kissed my lips Though I knew we shouldn't. I lost my heart, when I let him in, Though I thought I wouldn't.
The path I've followed is twisted, true, But it's the one I've chosen. The wrongs I've done are painful, too, And healing... Twice the hurt.
But I can see my light ahead, and hands held out to help me... Now I must find my strength To show you what I could be...
You've forgiven me my sorrows, And forgiven me your pain, But I have yet to forgive me, For losing once your name...
How to Say You're Sorry...
How to say you're sorry, When sorry doesn't work? And gifts...they seem so worthless, When words have lost their worth.
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